Not Seeing Clearly

This is me being shallow.

Most of you by now know that our children recently were testing at school in hearing and vision. I didn't give it much thought at all. I knew it was going to be done. I had it done as a child in elementary school. Jacob has had it done every year since he started school. No big deal. It's not one of those things that you stress about or that keeps you awake at night, at least I didn't think so until yesterday.

I picked up my mail yesterday at about three o'clock and came home. Kevin happened to be here because we are slackers as parents this Halloween and we hadn't yet gone to the pumpkin patch. We decided to go yesterday when the kids got out of school. As we were waiting for them to get home, they now have earned the privilege of walking home together, I started opening our mail. I noticed a white envelope with the PSD logo on it addressed to The Parents of Kayla Olson. My mind started sifting through conversations that Kayla and I have had to see if I could figure out what was inside the envelope. I don't recall her telling me about getting into any trouble, that's just not Kayla. She doesn't have a lunch account, her library book was returned and she checked out another one, she's had all of her shots, she's not sick, hmmmm, what could it be. Then I open it and read, "Dear Parent: ... After failing a second screening, the school nurse recommends that your child have a professional eye examination." Amy's face goes blank. I'm thinking, "What?" Kevin asks what it says and I show him. He reads it, says, "Hmm" and puts the letter down. That's it. Why isn't he freaking out like I am in my mind. I must have had another look on my face. He says, "What, it's no big deal." Then I start in, she hasn't ever complained of headaches or not being able to see/read when we read books together. She never gave me any indications that something might be wrong with her eyes.

I tried not to make a big deal about it when she got home. I asked her if she could see the chalkboard or the overhead projector okay at school. She said yes. I asked her if her head ever hurt when she read books, she said no. So I am thinking, the nurse must be wrong, right? Jacob and Kayla started talking about the hearing and vision screenings that they had. They talked about the beeping they heard and having to raise their hands when they heard the sound. They talked about the vision test and Jacob said it was so easy and Kayla said it was hard at the very bottom, the letters were too small, hmmmmm.

I don't know. I am not saying that there is anything wrong with wearing glasses. As a matter of fact I like the way people look in glasses. My middle sister, Lisa, wears glasses and I think she looks so cute. My mom wears glasses and so does my mother-in-law. I have seen lots of little kids with glasses and I always think they look so cute in their little glasses. Isn't Ms. Palin setting some sort of new trend with her glasses? As a junior high kid I actually had my mom buy me the fake glasses with no prescription in them because I wanted to wear glasses. I'm a dork right. So why am I freaking out about this? I kept staring at Kayla for the rest of the night. She is so beautiful. Not that wearing glasses would make her less beautiful, I just don't want the glasses to get in the way of her beautiful eyes and amazing features. I just can't picture her in glasses. I don't even know if she needs glasses. I am just jumping to conclusions and freaking out with out even knowing for sure if anything is really wrong with her eyes.

So I will be making an appointment to see the eye doctor soon. Kayla has no idea that we got a letter home or anything. This is just me being shallow and not wanting to have to buy my daughter glasses. I guess she can wear contacts when she gets older, right!?